Friday, April 30, 2010

self management hahah think about it


learn self management from me....first step is sleeping n dun feel guilty about it. 2nd step is learn to say no although u want to say yes. third step is learn to make excuses cz it saves u most of the time.
self management continues.... step 4 is allowing certain cheating n tell lies... its a sin but for your own good n for u to get yourself back n hav a life u must do it.. dun tel me u never done it... step 5 is acknowledge your access n egress.. know how to escape from sumting and enter to a scene n watever your decision u must not regret n no turning back cz if u do u will kedapatan a.k.a kantoi....stay tune for next steps...

step 6 perfect timing.time no repeating. Set your time n refer only to your interest cz if u dun u may indulge in the unexpected. Step 7 forecasting.try to imagine short term incidents. It may get u out b4 things bad comes. Careful u must be realistic n beware of consequences n predicaments. Step 8- instinct....sometimes trust wat u feel. Not all the time but just in case. This refers to all of your senses including 6th sense (assuming u have 1) hahah
step 9- emotion control... sumtimes show your emotion to others in certain conditions which will of cz favors u. Sumtime hide it like anger cz it might triggers a fight in a distinctive way. Step 10- acting like an artist.. this is hard but certain people r gud at it. this includes facial expression, movements n non verbal communication. Make it looks real n let them believe oldow it is fake in your heart. Step 11- talk like u know things... this is difficult. Speak optimumly... too much will brings doubt to others n yourself, wil stimulate questions which u dun knw da answers, will reduce your credibility. Not speaking at all will make u left out n less important a.k.a useless, tarnish your ability. Gud luck

i dun understand my life.....sucks being me!!


i dun noe wat am i supposed to post in here as i feel down, tired and lone from the inside. its not easy being me... some people said that i am being too nice to others that people will scared to treat me like other friends where they can be more open and be themselves.. some said that i am being to good that people can step in me and stab me from behind without me knwing it... other might say that i am a pathetic individu as i dun have a gf after 22 years of living in this whole wide world... they do think that i am being choosy... duh... even if i sell myself for free no one would even look at me haha.. some said that i am an idiot. cz i easily get cheated and bullied... sometime i should stand still and be strong... some say that i am pathetic.... for not be able to be as good as others and cannot accomplish sumting more like others do...
but the most obvious thing people said to me until now is GERALD = ACADEMIC.... m not like that u fucking bastard!!!!. m just a guy with normal life want to do everything he can as best as he can do... why with certain excellence i am tagged with that fucking label.... because of that label.. i cannot fit it well with those who have avarage and low academic performance... plese give me back my life... i want to mixed around.. i want to be with everyboy.. i want to discussed everything and want to friends... i tried but u guys are not giving me room to grow.... if i say sumting u guys played me by sayaing "gerald... pandai nya ..." " gerald ko mmg pandai" " gerald aku x layak la nak ckp pasal hal ni,... ko kan lagi pandai.... n so on... wat the fuck is that??? stop it u fucking moron..., i tried but u guys insult me.... please.... u make me abnormal.... bodoh nya.... kalo org buat kau mcm ni..... aku jamin ko terus panas... this happens not recently but since i was in secondary school.... mcm hidup ku jadi bodoh ja jadi seorng yang pernah dapat 5 a 7 a and 8 a n layak ke matrik n university and dapat dekan n jadi pembahas BI UPM...... life sucks dowh....
dat is why i try to be an idiot like make stupid stuff and do stupid things... it make me feel much more alive.. but bila aku buat hal bongok pun kena maki n perli jg.... mcm mistake pula aku hidup kot... PANASSSS!!!
huhuh...
bukan apa .... i just want to be with u.. all of u.... i want to have fun i wnt to be honest and i want to part of u if i can... cz i love each and everyone of u... being part of social community is me.... money, time is another story but being together is the precious thing that reminds of of love and happiness,....

huhuhu
welll.... soryy for the language and emo... not entirely in a good condition now... nid someone to tell but no one is around that i can trust at the moment... god bless us all... take care..

Monday, April 26, 2010

yo....


hey wassup... m new to this .. so hope to keep it running...
m looking forward to share with all of u on my life, my views, my experience and my days... its a way of practicing the freedom of speech and expression huhuhu.. well not for any bad objectives anyway huhu.. sharing of thoughts will be a great way of learning and acknowledging perspectives and considering perceptions... hope to hear from you very soon ... c ya

welcome...


hey... wassup... this is a new beginning and a new chapter of my whole life n struggle and love of my days .... its a sharing that will be a legacy of my entire days of living.... i invite u to Gerald's life and hopes...